Tuesday, July 12, 2011
3:30-Surgery has begun!
We just wheeled Abby down to the or. The anasthesiologist gave us a run down about what he's going to be doing. It just sounded so scary. We saw them carry the heart in, and yes....it was in a cooler. We had to say give our hugs and kisses and "I love you's" to Abby. I can honestly say that walking out that door and leaving Abby was the hardest thing I've had to through all of this....the hardest thing I've done in my life. I just feel like the worst mom ever because I can't just stay with her when she needs me the most. I hate this........I just want it to be over. Please bless the doctors to use their knowledge to perform the surgery without any problems...... Please bless Abby's little body to accept the new heart........Please bless Abby to sleep through the whole thing and not be scared, at all......Please bless Britt and Brock and I to have the strength to make it through the next 6 hours......Please, please, please let everything be okay. I will be pacing until I get an update.......did I say how much I hate this???