Well......I'm a little worried about Abby today. This past week she's been more tired, gotten dizzy sometimes when she stands up, says her legs feel like pins are sticking in them, and gets a little out of breath walking around. It's a good thing she goes to clinic tomorrow so we can figure out what's going on. We might have to change some of her meds or something. But then, sometimes, she seems great! Abby and Britt have been having a blast together, and driving me crazy! They've been staying up late and just goofing off, it's been fun. Abby will miss her a lot when she leaves on Thursday. I sent Brock to St. George yesterday on the shuttle. I hated doing that....I don't like to be away from the kids, but I have no choice. When Britt leaves Thursday we're going to have a long 2 weeks without them. Oh how I wish we could go to Hawaii! Abby, my dad and I are just going to try to make the best of it, so if you know of any fun things to do around here, please let us know.
One of my big worries right now is my dogs. My friend that's been keeping them can only keep them until July 14th. We haven't been able to find anyone that wants to temporarily adopt them, so I guess the next step will be selling them. This will be really hard on Abby and all of us, but I can't think of any other way. If you are interested, please just let me know. For those of you that don't know, they are 2-year-old shih tzus, there are 2 of them, and they are really cute. They don't bark very much, and they are just really easy to take care of. I wish we could keep them because they are the perfect dogs, but we can't have them here. If you know of anyone that can give them a good home just call me.
We went and saw the movie Soul Surfer this week. Abby and I had seen it before Abby had her little problem, but Britt and Brock hadn't. I'll tell you what, it was very hard to watch this time, it was like a totally different show. Britt had a hard time with it too, it was just too real. when the mom got the phone call and was rushing to her daughter, I could totally relate. It just brought all of the feeling right back. I almost had to walk out of the theater for a few minutes. But, it helped me realize something. At one point in the movie, Bethany-the girl who got her arm bitten off by a shark, returned home to a pile of mail from people all around the world. Many of them were letters telling her how she had inspired these kids and other people to do things that they never would have done without seeing her story. She talked about how her accident was so bad, but it brought about so much good. Maybe that's why there are accidents and natural disasters and people going through tough things. It gives other people the opportunity to do good. It really brings the good out of people, it forces people to step out of their normal routine and do something better, something different. If everything was always peachy, people wouldn't have this opportunity. I don't know.....it just made me think about things. Going through this has definitely helped us see the good in people, and it's made us see who really cares about the Doman family and what we're going through. We've learned so much from watching how other people are dealing with our situation. Thank you for teaching my kids that people usually want to do good and that they are there for you when you need them to be.
This is a little poem I came across on my new friend Kaidence's blog, her mom posted it, I thought it was perfect:
One day my world came crashing down,
I'll never be the same.
They told me that my baby was sick.
I thought, "Am I to blame"?
I don't think I can handle this.
I am really not that strong.
It seemed my heart was breaking.
I have loved her for so long.
I will not give up on this child.
I will listen to your advice.
I will give my daughter any chance.
No matter what the price.
I will learn all that I need
To help my baby thrive.
I'll even use that feeding tube.
My child must survive!
Will she need a lot of therapy?
Will she gain the needed weight?
Please God, help me do this.
As I accept our fate.
When the monitors beep at night,
it serves as my reminder.
How many parents would love that sound.
Tomorrow I will be kinder.
As another Angel earns his wings,
I run to my baby's bed.
I watch her sleep for quite a while.
I bend down and kiss her head.
I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.
I look to You wondering why?
Oh Lord, I just can't know your ways....
no matter how I try.
And yet, I trust you hold her life,
and guide us through each day.
My mind says savor each moment she's here,
but my heart begs, "PLEASE let her stay"!
From pacing the surgical waiting room,
to sitting by her bed.
From wishing for a good nights sleep,
to learning every med.
From wondering, "Will she be alright?",
to watching her reach out her hands.
With every smile my heart just melts,
despite life's harsh demands.
For all who see that faded line.
I look to them and smile.
You see my child is loved so much.
I would face ANY trial.
That scar I trace with my finger
(It's the door to her beautiful heart).
God must have known how much I'd love her
(Just as He loved her from the start).
A heart mom is always a heart mom.
Now wise beyond her years.
For those who have angels in heaven,
Our hearts share in all of your tears.
Every day I will try and remember,
I was chosen for her (and no other).
I will always embrace that beautiful day.......
When I became a "Heart Mother".
Keep in touch, I will post again after Abby's doctor appointments tomorrow.